Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Doubting God

Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened. - Matthew 7:7-8

Shame on me. How many things God has shown me in the last seven weeks, yet I continue to second guess His plans. God put Alex on my heart and so I wrote about him on the blog. When Dr. R e-mailed and asked me to put the word out about Alex needing a host family, I was already ahead of him. But what did I really expect to happen? After talking with Robert about Alex's plight, he unhesitatingly said, "Tell them to send Alex to us." Half of the time I think my sweet husband has tremendous faith, the other half I think he doesn't think things through. Shame on me.

I spoke with Dr. R and told him to send Alex with Kristina on the 21st. What's one more? The kids were excited about having another boy in the house for a few weeks; and I was excited about having such an incredible child to love thoroughly. When everything was said and done, I called my dear friend Kim to tell her we would be having one more this summer and to ask her to pray about working out the financial details. As I am walking her through the events that led to us choosing to bring Alex to Orlando, she says, "We'll take him."

Come again?

I tried to talk her out of it. I insisted that she take some time, speak with her family, sleep on it. She calls me back a few minutes later with the same concrete declaration: "We'll take him." I don't know what shocks me more, my own lack of faith or God's patience with his doubting daughter. Pray for Kim and her family. Pray that the financials will be worked out for Alex. Pray for me. :)


patti said...

What warms my heart is that this is a spiritual journey for me along side of you in a different way. Im not sure we all have to walk through the same things...God has different lessons for all of us even through other people's lives. I see so much of who God is through this process...that is really is good (which at one dark point of my life I doubted severely)... that he wants to suprise us. I have no doubt that the details will be worked out...I loved how in your blog you made Kim sound exactly like Kim..."We'll take him..." So Kim! I love you Leslie....thanks for letting GOD show Himself to you but also to the rest of us watching and partnering with you in different ways through this journey....I cant wait to see where it ends! :)

kelly said...

hey is kelly from OCS middle school...Bruce and I were going to e-mail KT after reading about Alex...we were beaten to it by the WONDERFUL Kim...we would have loved hosting Alex, but would be glad to offer any assistance to you all...Leslie, where can I get you the video camera?? We don't need it this summer as we are only going as far as the 7-11.
Please know that our prayers are with all of you...and that we are ready to help in all ways.
E-mail me to let me know what you bold in Christ in asking for help to care for these preciaous children...All I know is that Lily joining our family all the way from China would not have been possible without help from our friends in Christ. I love you for all that you are doing and I want to serve your families in any way I am able. XO, Kelly

kelly said...

oh..a typo..I know how to spell, but I can't type..."precious" ha no "a"...

patti said...

HA! Kelly, great words! I loved getting to know you at the end of school and want to hear Lily's story one day!
Leslie...believe it or not I emailed Oprah about your story....we shall see!!! xoxoox P